PINTEREST

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MY SUPER HEROES

MORAL SUPPORT

It's amazing how a few kind words can go such a long way. Not that I have doubts as to whether I made the right decision or not about my donating a kidney but having some moral support helps me in this process so much. I mean, I've done things in my life that many people may not have approved of but this just happens to be something I need support in, I guess because it's not just about me. So feeling down as I was, I got one great message from a wonderful cousin, whose kind words just gave me a whole new boost and then to put the icing on the cake, I now have the moral support of two other "mothers" that are so very important to me since I do not have my own mother around, my grandmother who lives away from me and my "fairy" godmother have both said I will be fine and I must do what I have to do and it will all work out. That's all I had to hear. Whether it's true or not, at least it's a positive reinforcement that I so desperately needed - thank you!!

I leave this Sunday afternoon to New York, so I can be at my appointment bright & early Monday morning. Chi Chi was already crying to me that she is going to miss me! Imagine, that's just 24 hours - I don't even want to think what it's gonna be like for a few weeks.

I'll tell you this - I'll probably be a "bitch on wheels/heels" at this appointment. I have to "fast" until around 1 or 2p.m. AND I'm P.MS.ing!!! Not a pretty sight: hungry & bitchy! Yikes! Wish the doctors good luck!! Trust me, you'll hear about how it goes!

Until next time....

THE JOURNEY

I look forward to the journey that I am about to embark on. I have to look at it as an adventrue, otherwise, I will fall apart. I see my husband growing weaker and feeling worse everyday and cannot sit around and do nothing. I still have to have a series of tests done to make sure that I am absolutely compatible with this other indiviual. In case you missed it, I am not donating my kidney directly to my husband. I am donating it to a third party as part of the cross-match program. We were lucky enough to find another couple who is in our same situation but are also not compatible with each other. It will be like wife-sawpping (LOL!) but instead we will swap kidneys. Oh wait! Did I mention the real zinger that's got me stressed? We live in Florida and the operation will take place in New York City where they do this kind of operation all the time. Yes, I will have to leave a few weeks or days before our scheduled operation, which means I have to plan on a babysitter, school transportation, after school activities and MAYBE Thanksgiving from afar! That's making me crazy!!! I know, how trivial it sounds to you the reader but these are my concerns. Hey! This is why I blog - to vent!

I have an initial appointment up in NY this coming week of Nov. 3rd and I guess there it will be determined if I can continue in this quest. You have just become an active particpant in this saga. I will blog all about my experiences and take pictures as much as I am allowed. Someone please make sure I can blog in the hospital!! :o)

Until next time....LIVE, LOVE & TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES

WONDERING

Now that I have decided to go ahead with this organ donation thing (the cross-match program) I am freaking out. Not to say that I do not want to help my husband but I have a million thoughts going through my head. I think when I volunteered for this I never really considered the fact that I am putting myself willingly "under the knife" while I have two small children. I think maybe if I hadn't lost my own mother maybe I wouldn't be so consumed with the thought of death. I don't want to be negative but these thoughts are there. The worst part is NO ONE thinks what I am doing is the right thing. They might be supporting me (in the moral support sense of the word) but I think everyone pretty much thinks I'm nuts. The way I see it is that I have a chance to extend my husband's life, so that G-d willing he will be around longer for our children.

I think what I worry most about are the logistics of it all. The fact that I have to be away from my two small children for almost 2-3 weeks. I don't know how my 6-year old will handle that! I know I will not handle it well at all! I know it's inconvenience versus saving someone's life. I know people do this all the time but do mothers of two small children do this to save their husband's? I wonder...

THE KIDNEY SAGA CONTINUES

Well to those of you who had followed my blog originally will remember that one of the main things I discussed was the process of dealing with my husband's need for a kidney transplant. We have been through so much. Well, better said, he has. We have had an unbelievable roller coaster ride of possible donors, paired donation possibilities and endless blood tests.

Our main focus recently has been on the cross-match donation option, where we swap kidneys with another "couple." Since I want to donate my kidney to him but am not compatible with him, the next best thing is for me to donate to some random person who has another person who would donate to him (my husband, Serg.)