WONDERING

Now that I have decided to go ahead with this organ donation thing (the cross-match program) I am freaking out. Not to say that I do not want to help my husband but I have a million thoughts going through my head. I think when I volunteered for this I never really considered the fact that I am putting myself willingly "under the knife" while I have two small children. I think maybe if I hadn't lost my own mother maybe I wouldn't be so consumed with the thought of death. I don't want to be negative but these thoughts are there. The worst part is NO ONE thinks what I am doing is the right thing. They might be supporting me (in the moral support sense of the word) but I think everyone pretty much thinks I'm nuts. The way I see it is that I have a chance to extend my husband's life, so that G-d willing he will be around longer for our children.

I think what I worry most about are the logistics of it all. The fact that I have to be away from my two small children for almost 2-3 weeks. I don't know how my 6-year old will handle that! I know I will not handle it well at all! I know it's inconvenience versus saving someone's life. I know people do this all the time but do mothers of two small children do this to save their husband's? I wonder...

F#%$#@ MORON

"George Bush vetoed health care for sick kids -- and he did it while he
continues to pour money into the war in Iraq...some of it going to
companies like Halliburton and Blackwater.

Fortunately, this disgusting act of political calculation can be overturned."

Send a letter to Congress right now:

http://www.democrats.org/FightForKids

"... In only his fourth veto ever, he blocked health care coverage for millions
of uninsured—and mostly poor—kids. The Washington Post is calling this
"the biggest domestic policy clash of his presidency."

Bush is totally out of step with public opinion—even 61% of Republicans
support the children's health care bill. We need just 15 more Republicans
in Congress to break with Bush to override the veto."